August 2009
happiness is bliss
i real feel like this is true. happiness is bliss. i love to be happy. dont you? hehe the most happiest day will be when i get my honor society cd soon. i pre ordered it today :) what can i say im a sucker for band stuff. i get a medallion with it hehe. to each is his own right? honor society is mine while jb’s is everyone elses haha
interactions getting all little ridiculous dont...
yo! So not much. Happened today. I got a chance to see my friends melody and Maurice who are twins.
They just had their first day at school today. Haha they were so happy to see me. Darn had another almost interaction with John.
I was walking to my anatomy class when I he stepped out of the classroom I was passing by. But he was in a hurry so I didn’t get a chance to say hi.
:( I’m...
sleep really helps
i just woke up after idk how many hours of sleep i think maybe three. its so crazy that i really needed the rest. so i had an almost encounter with John today. It was gonna be the highlight of my day but unfortunately this girl stepped up and talked to him first. so im like damn when am i ever gonna be able to talk to him. i found out that i have no classes with him but i do see him everyday in...
Dia numero dos haha :P senior day number 2 :D
Day Two of Senior Year!!! Can you say epic??? Lol a few weird things happened but all in all it’s been pretty rad. I saw my ex-bff in the hallway and it was weird because she was going to my rival school so I’m going to treat her as such. I’m sorry to say but I can’t really be friends with someone who talked about me behind my back and not in a nice way either. It’s...
SENIOR duh. :P
Today was a pretty rad day. It started the first day of my senior year. I really have no idea what time it is right now but I hope im not entering this too late. Anyways I found out that I have most of my classes with the same ppl from last year so thats not that bad cuz we all are really great friends. Then wow I never thought that I’d look for another guy. Well that was until I saw this...
a night gone wrong for the trillionth time ;(
I’ve never really had the need to speak openly about something that has happened in my family for a long time but I feel like I really need to talk about it. Some of my friends on here now about it while others are in the dark. Well last night was going pretty smoothly until Arthur, my little brother’s dad started to call the house phone and well saying some very disturbing and...
tired of all this!
i don’t know if i can do this for much longer. the yelling of the one-side of the conversation, the tears that keep springing from her eyes and the pain that i can hear for a few moments before i turn up the volume of my rescue—music. i feel like i really want to stay with my dad this year but idk if i could. i wonder what she would think? is it more of the fact that sick of this...
Not Enough Selena
so i dont know if im the only on that notices but in the send it on video miley Cyrus is shown more than Selena. i want to know what you guys think is the reason behind this? is it because miley is practically going to bring in more money? oh and another thing i really thing i love Selena so i dont understand why Disney isnt giving her more face time. what do you guys think?
procrastinating
this is something that i tend to do. especially when it comes to my writing of original stuff. so tonight like right now i am writing more on my novel. i am so happy that i finally thought about doing that. i need to at least write one chapter tonight. thats it ppl. goodnight
misery
i really dont like when the lights are off at my house. i feel terrible and i can feel my energy leaving me right now. i wonder why things happen to me? i think its because people like to see me in misery. its just so crazy. im cant go online, i dont have anything to do and im happy to be able to get to get into some air condition soon. i dont know if i can take this anymore.
Listen
iHate
since i cant twitter due to the fact that someone is gonna tell my mom on me like she has done. i HATE when my mom does things without my consent. Shes getting me a job at a grocery store and i dont want to work at one. dont you just hate when your parents do shit like that? i know i do! grr
Almost time :D
It’s almost that time for me to go back. i no longer consider it a place like hell because i wont be there that often. it’s just a place that i have to go to. but this year im gonna go for a different approach. im gonna forget the past and just live in the moment. im not even care about the people around me im just gonna focus on me. i think that’s a good idea. its my SENIOR year...
I love Jordin Sparks!!! :)
“where’s your devil? your jury? what’s my offence this time?...”
– Hayley Williams(Paramore)
“And love isn’t love until you give it away.”
– Nick Jonas - Send It On (via mahenoorx33)
home sweet home
I’m not entirely sure if I can call any place else my home than where I am right now. My home is where my mom is or more importantly where I feel comfortable. I have many homes really. I have one here in texas and then of course i have one in california where my dad is. Those are the homes that I feel comfortable in.
I don’t think I will ever feel as much as home as I do here but...
understanding
im not gonna lie about the fact that i didnt want to believe him. i didnt want to believe that he really loves my mom. but for some reason ive reached an understanding. i understand that maybe i didnt understand things at the time. maybe i didnt know some things that went down but now i think some things are definitely clear. im not saying that i want him to be that person that i wish he wasnt but...
“Love is blind, but friendship closes its eyes.”
– unknown
the ultimate romance movie :P
Tonight well particularly right now I am watching the ultimate romance ever on LifeTime. I actually watched it for the first time with my mom when I was much younger. I still have a great love for it and I can’t ever get enough of it. I really doubt any movie can really top this one in my mind, while others might disagree.
Meg Ryan & Tom Hanks depicted this characters so well that I...
Strong.
he makes me wonder sometimes how do I live without him near. would it really be worth it if i just choose to move on. i would love to just desert these feelings but would it be the right thing to do? i wish it was. the power to move on is pretty strong. maybe it’s the right thing to do or maybe it isn’t? who’s to know. surely not me. i just am walking through this battlefield....
